It's Still Me. I just have babies now!

My first post! Thought it would be fitting to tell you why I started this blog! Being a mom was one of my big dreams. Being able to sing was another, once I fell in love with being on stage a few years back!

Before babies I worked as a PA in a busy downtown corporate office and loved my job. The downtown scene, the challenging role, the social outings with inspiring people, the patio drinks. You get it. I sang on the weekends in my band trying to pursue music or what I thought then could be a career in music. Anything is possible right? “If you build it, it will come.” I’ve always been an optimist. I like setting life goals. I’ve always gone after what I wanted and usually always been successful. College, University, and even with singing. I've been on this musical journey the past few years with that daily urge to keep motivating myself for that end result to win!

Everyone has an identity before kids then life completely changes, as it did for me. I still feel like I'm same person. It's so hard to explain to a non-parent. It's a shift like no other. After baby number one I still managed to play a few gigs, saw friends for patio drinks (remember those?), date nights, everything felt right, the same almost. Then came number two and I expected busy, but not this busy! The lack of sleep, my memory disappearing, my toddler not napping, night feeds, way more laundry, meals to prep and a house to run! I know I'll be back out there doing shows in time, and I'm still managing the short (few song) gigs because I can pull off practicing for them. My kids are small right now and I am loving every minute of it but that's exactly why I'm still trying to keep this up. I need to. We live through the insanity at home raising small children, we have to keep something going for ourselves, to stay true to who we are.

I'm the happiest I've ever been and have the family I've always wanted. I'm also the busiest I've ever been but I still want to keep singing and writing songs, as much as I can anyway. I'm trying to find that balance where I can still get be the mother and wife I want to be and still continue my passion. This blog is where I can share my journey. Share my little piece of 'happy' so that I can be the best version of myself and best parent I can be.

To all the moms out there working for themselves, juggling several jobs and wearing so many hats - choose whats happy for you and keep doing it. Take some time once in a while for you. Your kids will thank you in the long run and they'll be more grounded because of it. I just go with the madness and when I do get a chance at a doing a performance, I just cake on the makeup to hide my 4 hours of sleep, bring my baby bag

and say hey "It’s still me, I just have babies now."

Take care,

Nicky

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